Zombie

Bleeeh.....It's only Wed and I'm like already feeling so drained, so stressed and the worse thing is, I felt like I have not slept in ages....sobz....

Well....let me think....

Sat - me & dd met up with our nepal fren and his china gf + gf's mother for shopping in Ikea & Courts and then dinner and more shopping in Vivo City....I hate shopping....hm....ok...went back hm watched korean dvd till 3am...

Sun - woke up at 12pm, feeling like I haven really slept....bf picked me up for lunch, ended up in sempang bedok for their famous fishball noodle...wah lao....waited for almost 45mins-1hr....sigh...some more so little leh...so, no choice, ordered popiah and kaya toast bread....went for swim....tired tired went baq hm for dinner and more korean dvds....but slept at 12am....normal....

Mon - woke up at 10.30, make my way to work....till 10pm...came baq...no life day...sad....tired....very tired....

Tues - woke up, sms my attachment teacher, last min asked me to meet up for a briefing and filling up of forms...sianz....took urgent half day, met with teacher, toured ard the premises....rushed to work for lunchie wif my colleagues....work work work...travelled all the way to redhill to meet my bf (stoopid bf company make him OT till 6.30)....made me wait for 30mins...arrrgh....as usual, pissed off and show black face...muahaha....but luckily he smart enuf to tempt me with crystal jade la mian xiao long bao & Gelare dessert....hee...me so easily satified....such gf where to get rite? muahahaha....lalaaaa.....

Wed - First day of my attachment...woke up 7am sia..too nervous the day b4, cant really sleep.....walked to the center....kids so damn cute but teachers are somehow a bit distant leh....not like my ex-classmates who're so damn friendly and nice to me...took half day to slp....so damn tired still....sigh....rushed to work....now come baq, papa tempt me eat supper....arrgh....too full to slp...so write blog...keke....

Now....tell me....wats the prob with my life? Why m I so tired....sigh....panda bear in the making....keke...

The negativity of Life...

You ask me what life is all about. If it's about living life the only way that makes you happy? Then why do we have to abide by the "rules" of society, trapped by the defination of morals & values and be bounded by the expectations of others?

But gal, sometimes, making pple that means a lot to you happy, makes oneself happy. I like to call it the chain of happiness.

You ask me why do humans have emotions - To feel love and yet hatred, To feel concern and yet abandonment, To feel laughter and yet tears, To feel hope and yet regret, To have and yet, be forgotten.

But gal, be happy you once felt the love, the concern, the laughter, the hope and everything else. Indulge in the memories - it's yours to keep.

You ask me how anyone could be so cruel.

But gal, it takes two hands to clap, a pebble to create ripples, a snow flake to create a snowball and an effect to a consequence.

I know the words are harsh. I know it might be subjective. I know its not pleasing to your ears....

But gal, he was once yours before you choose to betray his trust.
He once chose to stay while you chose to move on.
He once gave while you took.
He once drown himself in self-pity when you had your "him".

Now, set him free....set yourself free....its neither yours to choose nor him to decide.

Let time heal all wounds, clear all minds, open all hearts, learn the mistakes, treasure the experiences and make oneself stronger.

Love is not for the weak, the selfish or the fallen pple who chose not to pick themselves up.

Be strong. Be brave. Have courage to learn from the past, to face the present and welcome the future.

Moments - Dec 2006

Woooo hoooooo....It's now 2007!!!

Time passes sooooo fast when you're having fun....sigh; C'est la vie...

Xmas period was great....we had small family and frens gathering over steamboat on my actual bday, met up with other frens for dinner celebrations on other days, went for a drink to chill out and catch up, had a few pleasant surprises from frens & colleagues....received many many Happy Birthday wishes from all the wonderful frens and relatives of mine....hee....quite surprised with wishes from a few frens whom I have lost touched over the years...Guess dat reminds me I'm not making enuf effort to maintain our friendship & they're blaming me for it....waahahah....okies okies....I'll jiayou!!!! hee hee....oh boi, I absolutely like this time of the year....hee hee....

The New year long holidays was not bad either....but just that I had too many late nights - KTV, stay-overs with frens, movies and Gelare supper!!!....hee.....so ended up having headache on Mon....arrrrghhh.....spoil my mon & tues holiday ne....waaaaail....so wasted....sigh....

Well, that pretty sums up my last few moments of 2006....hee....pretty busy and fulfilling...but guilty coz I'm spending too much on entertainment and food instead of saving money for my future! arrrghhh....keke....but hey, its the holiday season....its the time to spend! muahahaahaha....who m I kidding....bleh....guilty guilty...hee hee....

Hope 2007 will be a fulfilling year for ALL OF US!!!!